Proverbs 13:12 “Hope deferred maketh the heart sick…”
This past week I’ve had a “sick” heart over something I’ve been hoping and dreaming about for a long time. Yet, all week long, God has placed specific signs in my path that have shown me it’s time to set that dream aside. Feeling rather down about it, I asked my husband if he knew of a good counter verse to Prov. 13:12 and his instantaneous response was Ruth 1:12:
“I have hope, if I should have an husband also to night…”
Yes, he’s a funny guy, but aside from a good laugh it didn’t give me much help, until he mentioned Proverbs 3:13-18.
Now, those verses in Proverbs 3 are the classic verses on wisdom and at first I didn’t get the connection. How were the ‘wisdom verses’ going to help me with my ‘deferred hope?’ Then I reread verse 18:
“She (wisdom) is a tree of life to them that lay hold upon her: and happy is every one that retaineth her.”
And, realization hit: God gives wisdom and I needed the wisdom to know the difference between a personal dream and God’s will for me for this stage of my life. If I have the wisdom to step back from that dream and consider that God knows my future and my ‘expected end’ (Jer. 29:11), then letting the dream go is not giving up but a realization that God has something better for me…
At the same time that God has been closing doors on my dream all week, He has been opening them faster than I could ever imagine regarding something completely different, something I had let go of years ago. You know, the world tells us to push, push, push and never give up. But, God tells us to pray, seek His face, and then we’ll have the wisdom to know whether or not we should keep pushing or whether we should set our plans aside in order to allow place for the new direction He wants to take us.
I don’t know what your dreams are this morning, but I suspect at some time in your recent past your hope has been deferred and it has made you heartsick. May you remember, as I have, that the ‘God who knows the future’ is holding your hand!
Today, I place my hope in Him, the One who anchors my soul. (Hebrews 13:5)